poetry

(climate) changing seasons

(climate) changing seasons

Days slowly morphing into nights.

Days getting shorter, one minute at a time, one leaf at a time, one cloud at a time. 

The air slowly getting crisper & crisper.

A cool sharp gust reddens your cheeks, replacing the gentle caress of a warm breeze. 

A single teardrop emerges from your eye 

& then another one.

The wind is too harsh for your sensitive eyes; 

they still need to adjust to the changing temperatures.

High 80s slowly dropping to low 70s;

soon after, they enter the 60s. 

You look out the window & no longer see green leaves.

Instead, you see red, yellow, orange, brown. Faint, but noticeable. You know they’re coming.

One by one, the leaves drop. 

Some morph: absorbing, releasing the colors of the sun.

Each day gets cooler, 

but the process is slow.

You look around & observe nature taking its time.

There’s no need to rush.

Slowly, you put away your light shirts, your shorts, your sandals.

Slowly, you bring out your sweaters, your scarves, your rain boots.

Iced tea becomes hot. 

A mug of coffee becomes hot cocoa.

Salads turn into grain bowls & soups.

The smell of pumpkin & cinnamon & cloves infuses the air.

As soon as the weather starts to dip, you turn your oven on again - perhaps the first time since spring’s first bloom. 

Your mouth is already salivating at the thought of warm bread and cinnamon rolls on the table, the intoxicating fumes permeating the air. 

This is how we’d like it to be.


This is how it is. 

One day, you’re wearing a light jacket & loose pants.

The next, you’re wearing three layers, gloves, a scarf & a hat.

One day, the tree outside your window is still full, green, its trunk still soft & pliable.

The next, the tree is bare, the green is gone; what is left is only a stiff trunk with rigid branches desperately trying not to break. 

One day you walk leisurely outside, enjoying the cool but not bone chilling fall air. 

The next, you curse under your breath as you stuff your hands down your pockets & your head in your scarf. 

No warning. No clue.

Instead of using a ladder, the temperatures jumped straight down. 

The fall is steep. Quick & instantaneous.

The air slaps you in the face; you feel the moisture being sucked out of your skin.

Soft skin becomes rough.

Your extremities turn red.

Your heart races as it tries to adjust to 

Our new climate.

Which will become just our climate - actually 

It already has. 

I fear for the seasons, I fear for nature. I fear for myself. 

And who says climate change isn’t real?



Dreams.

Dreams.


They slip from my fingers like like honey & soap. 

Trickle down the pipes of my throat. 

Run down the crevices of my arm (like peach juice after a sweet snack). 

They dissolve like flecks of salt in water. 

Dissipate like fog from steaming potholes, 

just as quickly as they formed in my brain. 

All they leave are ghosts, the ghosts of my dreams. 

Remnants, fragments.


Pieces. 


I have nothing to hold onto but images, shapes. Colors & sounds. 

As I try to write - to remember - I can't. I feel the images evade my consciousness, morphing into vague ideas, slowly seeping through the cracks.

They are going home. Home to the drawers of the superego.

Or is it the id? 


Who knows. 


I am stopped mid sentence ; I forget how to write. My train of thought stops to a screeching halt.

The tracks sizzle. 

I pause, look up. To where? 

I do not know. 

Only one thing is certain. I have lost my dream. 

I see it fading away. 

Away. 

Away. 

Dreams.

***


Until one day, my hand keeps writing. The ink continues to flow, curves forming on the blank page. 

Stains. 

I remember it, the dream. The scenes are clearer, the characters more prominent.

Still, there is something missing.


A link, a storyline perhaps. The connecting tissue that would make the images appearing in my head make sense.

Even with this, though, I know I would still be lost.

Haze. 

Dreams do not exist to make sense - at least not in the real world.

They are inherently incomprehensible.

But this reasoning is not satisfying. I cannot just accept this and move on.

There must be something. Something to clear the murky water, chase away the clouds of confusion.

Something to smooth out the rough desert floor of my conscious mind.

What is, then, this missing element?

Ah. Yes.

Sleep.